So recently I haven't been myself and my confidence levels have defiantly decreased to a low level. Now I don't want attention and I'm not just saying this for sympathy but I just wanted to rant my feelings and I thought why not on my blog.
Now I'm not the most popular girl you'll ever meet, but I do have some good friends who will defiantly be there for me when I need them but sometimes I don't have that feeling and I forget about those certain people and life just feels lonely.
I'm not a person who communicates over social media a lot or likes to text so it's hard to keep in touch with certain people. Which is usually why I drift away from most of my friends, which can really dig into me, especially when I'm not in good mood to start of with.
Recently it's defiantly got a lot harder to deal with this problem as I see my friends meeting up and having gatherings with everyone and obviously having a good time and I don't get invited.
I've not been as close with them lately as I would of liked to have been as I don't see them as much. I've recently switched colleges so I don't see them like I used too but I thought that we would still be close and meet up every now and then. Now I just feel totally forgotten and it makes me sad that I've spent a whole year with these people but they don't try to get me involved in certain things.
I don't have the confidence I wished I did and I struggle to talk to people as I feel that I'm bugging them by simply just saying "hi" to them which not many people understand. It's the main reason why I don't make conversation even if I really wanted too.
It might not be a big deal and I'm possibly blowing this out of proportion but it's just a situation I wanted to talk about and I felt most comfortable sharing this with you guys.
If you feel the same or want to leave advice for anyone who could possibly be feeling the same way, leave a comment.
See you soon, Girl Behind The Screen xx
